Why God is God and I Am Not

I will tell you that I find it very comforting to know that I am not God; most of the time. There are times though that I wonder why God doesn't do things my way. I had one of these moments not long ago when my brother and his wife were going through a very big struggle in their lives.

My brother and his wife have not really ever had a good marriage. They were kind of thrown into marriage with a lot of mistrust from both sides but they have been determined to stick with it. Until recently, I really struggled with this because I just saw all the the bad in the situation. I guess it is a good thing that I am not God because I was not really holding out for a good ending.

But...God is God and He is holding out for a good ending. He had the beginning of it planned all along. It started with my brother watching that movie Fireproof. Watching it caused him to want to change and he bought the book that the movie is based off of and started through the 40 days. He started praying for his wife and seeking to find ways to show her worth.

Next my sister-in-law woke up in the middle of the night a couple of weeks ago and God gave her a scripture verse and a true repentance came. Her attitude toward my brother has started to change just like his attitude toward her has started to change. Now I am not saying that they now have the perfect marriage after two weeks or that they will not have anymore troubles. What I am saying is that they have made a decision that what God wants is most important and that maybe their marriage is worth saving and not just enduring.

The reason I share this is because there are many times in our lives that we do not see the circumstances in our lives as having a positive ending. And there are even more times that we wish that we could give God advice so that He would just eliminate the problems in our or someone else's life. If we pray and are patient we might find a blessing at the other end of the problem. What I've seen happen this last week or so was God working a miracle in a way that defies logic. He has stepped into a situation because there was a cry for help and He help in a way that no one thought was possible. I am so grateful because God's way was so much better then my way could have ever been.

Life in Kansas

Life here in Kansas has been interesting. We moved to Kansas a little over 4 years ago. We came here for two important reasons. The first being that God directed us to go. The second because my husband had lost his job of 5 years in 2004 and could not find another one in the Grand Rapids, MI area.

When we moved to Great Bend, KS we thought that life would become more easy. We found out that life does not change dramatically though you move. We did find out that God was desiring more from us. He wanted us to trust Him more. Lean on Him more. Be dependent of Him and no one or nothing else. While this may seem easy for some, it was (and still is) had for me. I tend to be a fix-it myself type of person and when I can't I get depressed. When we started to go through situations that I could not fix myself, I began to realize that God was serious about me turning more to Him and less to my own abilities. As I lean more on Him, He shows His faithfulness more and more. In this blog I hope to share some of the faithful things that He has done and is doing to take care of this family. Some may seem coincidental to you and others may seem impossible but I know that all are of God.