How about God

I realize that it's been along time since I've posted but I also realize that I needed to figure somethings out before I posted again. I feel that a person can not honestly post about what God is doing in his/her life if their life is not in line with God.

I, unfortunately, have been struggling with that aspect of my life for a couple of months. We have been going through some hard issues and circumstances in our lives here, but more than that, I have been struggling with putting my relationship with God first in my life. I've allow my problems and my desires to influence how I respond to Christ's calling in my life. I am realizing that I need to turn over my life, my desires, my problems to God. This maybe a life long struggle for me, but I am wanting to do what God wants.

As I've been struggling with this concept, I realize that I've put things above God. Things like books, computer time, desires for certain achievements in life, and so on. This has even effected my ability to be a mom and a wife. I've been turning inward instead of focusing on God and others first. I've had to ask God's forgiveness and confess my sins to Him. I'm thankful that He is way more forgiving than I am.

Now, I can't say that I will be any better about not struggling with God or with blogging about God's blessing in my life but I can say that God has once again got a hold of my heart and reminded me that HE IS in charge of my life. He will take care of me and my family if I just turn to Him, trust Him, obey Him, and give Him the number one spot of my life. I love Him and, even though I struggle, I want Him to my my guide and my influence.

I hope that the blessing and struggles that I post help those who are struggling as well. I know that God is great and can use anything and anyone, even one that is as imperfect and sinful as I.